Excuse me if I have/some place in my mind/where I go time to time.
― Tom Petty
Just before midnight two weeks ago Friday (24 hours before) I lucked into a ticket to see Tom Petty on the final night of his North American Hypnotic Eye Tour. Awesome evening of rock n’ roll! Maybe because I discovered Tom Petty has an October birthday too, I began to inventory birthdays (mine and those of pivotal people in my life) as well as unexpected moments, deaths of loved ones, reunions, anniversaries, and magic in this 10th month of the year.
October Transformations
An insatiable escape artist, in 2011 on the return part of my trip, I travelled back in time 10 hours (across multiple time zones) on my birthday. I departed Nairobi just before midnight en route to a morning latte in Amsterdam before returning to Los Angeles to teach a few hours after landing. I’m not sure the gist of what I delivered in class that night and I’m pretty sure no one else knew either! Six hours after claiming my luggage from the carousel I arrived back on my doorstep, thus extending my birthday celebration by an entire day without losing any calendar time. 9,724 miles in 24 hours and 10 minutes. On the outbound part of that journey to Kenya with unexpected/ planned reunion stopover, I never imagined how my life would expand in the next 2 years. How that chance encounter would fill in the gaps of missing decades.
You and I will meet again, When we’re least expecting it, One day in some far off place, I will recognize your face, I won’t say goodbye my friend, For you and I will meet again.
– Tom Petty
A magical reappearance in October 2011 followed by a sudden disappearance in October 2013. A modern Gothic romance I am still trying to untangle – as astounding as any Houdini trick. A final parting yes, but forgotten – never.
What does this have to do with creativity, writing or art you ask? A fair question. Like any decent escape artist, this jet-lagged guide would say you have to unravel it on your own. It’s an illusion – the good kind.
And here’s an illusion for you. Growing up in Canada, I loved the saturated palette of October that turned the leaves red, red–orange, yellow, and ochre. Brilliant rays of sunlight dazzled the cool air. I munched crisp juicy apples – tart to taste. But in a blink, threatening clouds obscured the magic of the performance. The darkening skies – a preview of coming attractions – for the long, bitter winter freeze. To my hardy Canadian friends this transformation signals the long awaited snow they so cherish. To me those icicle covered tree branch posters that beckon you to frolic in the white powder, unaccompanied by the reality of sub zero temperatures with a wicked wind chill factor, indeed count as illusion – of the bad kind.
And finally, as we approach All Hallows’ Eve on the 31st a festivity originally intended to conjure up the souls of the dead, we imagine haunted sites and trick or treating under the guise of skeletons, ghosts, vampires, witches, devils, and characters from the tales of Edgar Allen Poe. Grand illusions! Artifacts and symbols surrounding Halloween are said to frighten evil spirits. Folklore suggests the Jack O’ Lantern represents a soul denied entry to heaven or hell. But beware: outside of the sanctioned costuming of this spirited October ritual lies some rampant masquerading – illusion and not the good kind.
As for lively costumes, I am not wearing Tom Petty’s famous hat in the photo above. He lost it in a fire. It actually belongs to the extraordinary man in the first tale. But if I can figure out how to make things reappear i.e. rise out of the ashes – I will. A trick I wish I knew that would help me solve a lot of mysteries. Sadly, the ultimate illusionist magician Harry Houdini died on October 31, 1926 leaving me to discover how it’s done on my own.
So what’s this got to do with rock n’ roll or the art of writing? Plenty, I think – like uncanny happenings, spontaneity and chance, freedom of self-expression, paying homage to legends, unbridled imagination, and the magic of transformation.
Embrace illusion – the good kind. Eyes open!
And I’m free, free fallin’.
– Tom Petty
Thank you for sharing this collection of October musings, Martha. Like any great magic trick, there is much more than meets the eye, and their combined strength is a testament to the memory palace you've built for yourself. As Faulker wrote in Absalom, Absalom!, "Your illusions are a part of you like your bones and flesh and memory."
That ancient tree…
The cherished hat…
Those autumn leaves…
And your haunting words.
Together they conspire to evoke a swirling mist of love and loss and transformation.
You write in riddles, Martha. Tendrils of words that frame shadows of memory in the mirror of your reader’s mind.
You possess a special kind of magic, an otherworldly wisdom.
Perhaps the hat on your head should be tall and black and pointy at the top? On Halloween, at least!
Cool. A story about much – and about nothing…
great post!!! xxoo
The most unusual Halloween tale – the good kind! Leaves me hungry to unravel the first (and implied: the most important) mystery ….
tally ho
Take look at a tree, a flower, a baby growing teeth, hair, aging, GLOBAL CHANGE. Nothing stays the same…and Nature's natural sequence is not within our control..
Ask Darwin. And Kurt Vonnegut or Tom Robbins.
However, expansion of the mind by the many variables available is our individual choice & journey. That's what's called "living". Fortunately, we never really know our destination. Instead, life is full of big surprises. YAY!
…And Happy Birthday Martha!
You are such an imaginative, creative, and sensitive writer! ! Of course, that does not surprise me. I remember you as a young girl and you had such style, and great fashion taste. Would love to see you again when you visit your sister. All the best to you, from one Canuck to another, Gail
One must have the mind of winter
To regard the frost and the boughs
Of the pine-trees crusted with snow…
— Stevens
Hap-Hap-Happy Birthday, Martha!
Happy Birthday! With three kiddos under the age of four, the wonderful chaos of life sometimes overrides my love of putting pen to paper. Then I read one of your posts and before I even finish your last line, I have already begun to formulate my own first sentence. Thank you a million times over for always infusing and conjuring imaginative thoughts with your expressive words.
Happy Birthday, Martha. October is, indeed, a special month for you. There are so many mysteries in life we will never understand. I loved your post. You look great in the hat. Tom Petty would be proud.
Nothing is more illusion-provoking than the experience of standing a Midnight to 4:00 A.M. solo watch at sea. The movement of waves and cascading white water, the wildly swinging arcs of celestial bodies, the occasional lurching of the vessel in response to dark shapes and forms as they strike the bulwarks of my vessel, the sound of the wind, the feel of the spray, shipboard sounds like slapping halyards, a creaking hull, jingling shrouds, all combine to feed my imagination and create cryptic illusions.
Great post Martha I too love the hat and you suit it well. The tree has a certain familiarity ! Happy Birthday Martha love your writing.
Pat x
You are a magician Martha. You wove an intricate tale out of a black hat. And a great writer too. Happy Belated birthday.